Yesterday I saw my oncologist and we discussed my next cycle of Xeloda and she mentioned she wanted to lower my dose. Instead of 11 pills a day to 6 pills a day. Then we discussed our pending vacation and she said I could always skip a week so I don’t feel so bad. I told her I could take it… I did not want to compromise my treatment. She assured me that six pills a day or even pushing one week back would be ok. That this is a bonus! Xeloda a bonus! WTF, I never wanted that type of bonus. But what she meant is it is another form of preventing a reoccurrence. She said with the type of massive radiation I had and the pills I would be ok. I left happy and renewed.

Later that night Juan and I enjoy our date night. One that we haven’t had in a while. We use to go out every Friday night and have our date night. With all the illnesses that dropped to the waste side. But last night was the first of many more to come. With that being said, I rehashed the Dr. visit. Asked Juan his thoughts on the Dr. visit. He said he thought it was a waste of time but then changed his mind and said well they did blood and she did lower your dose. So right away my mind, you know the “Cancer” mind went to why is the Dr lowering my dosage? Is she not interested in my well being? Is this all a Rx scam? You name it, I thought it. Unfortunately, I wont know what is right or wrong and I will have to depend on the Dr., my faith and my gut.

For now I am finally feeling better and enjoying my days. I will live in the present, be the best person I. An be and live intentionally….

I am blessed! I got this!