So yesterday I did this thing called phase 2. Yes the surgeries continue. The plan was to remove what is call “dog ears” from the left breast and lift it to be more symmetrical to the right which is the radiated side that lays higher. Then the Dr would remove the painful scar tissue on the right. During the prep the Dr came to see me and said he was to concerned with the radiated tissue. He said it would be a risk that he didn’t believe would be a good idea. He said it would be like poking a bear! Wouldn’t guarantee the scar tissue wouldn’t come back and the healing could be a nightmare! Months of healing and could have to use a wound vac. So I cried! I tried to be strong but some tears did come out. The nurse was so awesome! He asked if I was ok and held my hand. The Dr did say if a lost enough weight and he could get more skin then he would revisit it. It’s amazing everything is weight….. and if you know me my weight has always been an issue! For me to lose weight I have to do both exercise and diet. It is a struggle for many reason not will power but medical. I do not have a thyroid so I take synthroid. That controls a lot. If you are not dosed correctly you won’t lose a lb! So for now I will live with the constant discomfort of scar tissue.

My plan or goal is to start a year long process. It will be the longest goal I will initiate. My goal will be to lose 40lbs. God help me…. I’m thinking I can do it in six months but my body has been through hell so I will take as long as it needs.

I am grateful to my loving husband whom has been by my side the entire time. I haven’t been the easiest wife throughout this journey probably more so after treatment has ended since finding my new norm has been so difficult. But he has been awesome and I need to work on continuing to let him know it, not just with words but actions.

So for now I heal and rest again! Thank you for reading and joining me through this journey!

I am blessed! I got this!