It has been a while since my last post. To be exact my last post was on February 21, 2021. I haven’t posted because things have been good or bad but because you learn to live with the aftermath of cancer. Some people assume your fine because your not in treatment but the ugly reality is cancer is the gift that keeps on giving.

Yes, cancer can be a gift. As crazy as it sounds you learn so much about yourself and others. You learn to put yourself first as much as you can. But you also realize that you are strong then you think. It’s all about the mindset.

Well my mindset today is not the most positive. I had my CT Scan on Tuesday. The process of going to get a scan plays with your mind. You relive the whole journey. You pray that nothing comes back. And you hold the tears back as the scan machine tell you to hold your breath.

So it is now Saturday and no results! I usually get them within 48 hours. It has been four days. The kicker is I called my oncologist on Friday asking her if she got the results. I was told no but that we would go over it on Monday at 12:30. So I wait a few more days. I play the mind game but fry to stay busy. It the silent time that kills me the most! If I stay busy then I am fine. But if not I play so many sinceros in my head. Cancer really sucks! It just a realty that one must live with. The fear truly never really goes away but you learn to deal with it. But then you have days like today that you just want it to be Monday!

My prayer is that everything is good and I remain NED! I pray for peace for anyone going through this journey. For now I wait! But like always, I GOT THIS! I am blessed!