Today marks my 3rd session of the second phase on chemo. Yes, we have phases. Once again they tried to access my port and the first try was a bust. A little part of me want to cry but I held on tight to those tears and they called in a second person. She tried and was in! I wanted to jump up for joy. Who would have thought that you would jump for joy just to access a port.

So my premeds ran about an hour then they did taxol for an hour and then carbo for another hour. That is the new chemo that will be added every 3 weeks for the remaining 9 weeks. The side effects are naturally the same. Dizziness, weakness, tired, bone pain, hair loss. She as every eye lash falls I try to hold on to it. As every hair from my eyebrow falls a gasp for a breath. As the aches begin in my back, the thought of cancer spreading enters my mind. It does but for only a brief second. Because if I chose that path it will be hard to get out of it. So as she plugged in the carbo I thanked God for finding the positive lymph node. This way we can fight stronger. I also asked God to make me whole again. Yes, my faith is the key to my success and I will not accept any criticism or negativity. When one is faced with death you either grow stronger or turn away. I choose to be stronger and grow in my faith. I will not push my faith on anyone and everyone has the right to believe or not believe. All I ask is to respect my decision. We live a world that faith is becoming obsolete. Maybe just maybe that is why we have so much cancer, social issues and divide in our country. To bring people back to their faith. I don’t have the answers but I do have faith. And as the Bible says all I need is faith the size of a mustard seed. Ok so my blog was to be only on today’s treatment and I went off a tangent.

What I know for sure (as Oprah says), Cancer sucks, and you must fight it with all you have.Be open to suggestions whether its eastern medicine or western medicine. Maybe it’s both. You have to fight and fight every day. Take out the negative people and bring in joy. Life is short and you have to enjoy it to the fullest. Lead by example. When the mean girl comes out put her back in her place and let the kind loving girl fight the battle.

I continue to be blessed! I got this! Thank you God!