Today marks one of the emotional days! I believe part of it was lack of sleep. As sleeping hasn’t been easy since the diagnosis. I was getting angry today then emotional. Not how I want to be or be known for. I decided to rest and missed my book club in the morning which was another mistake today. But I can’t change that I can only learn that if your day isnt going your way push through it!

So today was Chemo 4 of 12. Got on the scale and the crap read 2lbs more. So the tears came on while on the scale. Plus a few choice words came out too. That’s a total of 17 lbs! I hate it, I am uncomfortable to say the least. But with the steroids I get so hungry. Plus I am a stress eater. The Dr. said not to worry about it and I need to stay positive. She said that my mindset plays a big role. I told her I read the book! Lol I agree 100%!

The Dr. also said the game plan is to do Carbo next Monday a dose of 6 which is the highest dose. She will prep me this Friday with a shot and follow up with a shot again on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. We also talked about signs to look for. Extreme weakness, fever of 100.4 and which hospital to go to. I know I will be fine but I have a huge corporate visit on Tuesday. My hope is that if I do get symptoms I get it on Wednesday or Thursday.

But after a somewhat crappy day I received a beautiful card from my old neighbor Mary and her daughter Kristen. It is my Faith and all the support that will get me through this journey. I am blessed! So blessed!