Every morning I wake up and feel alive and ready to concur what’s ahead. Then within 15-20 minutes, I am reminded that there is no norm. Another side effect kicks in and you try to ignore it. Then you realize, who are you kidding you are battling cancer and undergoing chemo treatment that for most would have been bed reden. I must say that December was the hardest. I believe the accumulation of the chemo finally reared it’s ugly head.

I have been bed/couch reden. Sleeping a lot. Numbness in my hands and feet like never before. I know have to take the meds 3x a day. Pain in my chest, is it heart burn or the chemo effecting my heart. I take an Alka-Seltzer and see.

All this while being told that the insurance will not cover a Pet Scan. Yes, the Pet Scan to show if this awful chemo treatment worked or didn’t. A Pet Scan to compare to the first one! You just can’t make this shit up! So instead they approve a CT Scan. It is amazing that we are living in a society that insurance dictates what you need and not your Dr. So now we can’t compare apples to apples! No wonder I feel nauseous and pain in my chest! It is so frustrating! The only good thing is I will have another MRI on 1/7 so we will be able to then at least compare one MRI to another.

I still remain faithful and truly blessed. And I do thank God for all the support I have. The true friends and family that are by my side! And I thank God for removing all the negative people from around me! I pray to be healed and I pray for a cure. My dream is that no one should have to go through this ever!