I haven’t blogged in a while. It has been a few weeks filled with anxiety and fear. From CT Scan and X-rays to dry runs for radiation. I actually had to take something for the first two sessions. Then by Wednesday I was fine and became a pro.

This huge machine is my date for the next five weeks. Yes every Mon-Fri, I will lay down and hold my breath for 20 seconds for each radiation beam. It takes about 10-15 min to place me in line with the green beams and red lights. I call it the “honey I shrunk the kids” lights. Then I get six separate hits of radiation. I am told to breath and let it out then breath and hold for 20 seconds. This is to prevent the beam from hitting my heart. Talk about fear. So I close my eyes and pray. Every other sessions they place this silicone sheet over my breast and side and do the treatments.

The Team their is awesome we have actually began to make jokes. Tony and Mayra are the ones that set me up everyday. I asked them if they went school for this and they said, yes-college. Then Mayra walked in and said no it’s a 4 week course and I told her you sure it isn’t a YouTube video. A little humor goes a long way through this crap.

I read this blog today about someone’s eulogy and I have heard it before but it resonates in me today for many reasons. It’s speaks about the birth date and end date on a tomb stone. In short it isn’t about the start or end date but the dash in between. It is how we live and want to be remembered. So with that being said live every moment with gratitude and love! I want my dash to be filled with so much.

I am blessed! I got this!