This is the year that my best friend and I turn 50! Yes, the big 50!

So we talked about taking another River Cruise but nothing really spoke to me. I guess I had fears of the weather. It being to hot and me not being able to enjoy it. You see every time I walk out to the sun my arms tingle. The tingle is like having a bad reaction on your skin. The good thing is that it is only my arms and it is only for a few minutes. Just another Wonderful side effects of Xeloda. Plus I would be further along on my Xeloda treatment. Meaning the chemo will be accumulating week after week. So she mentioned she was going to Alaska with the family and We should join them. So in less then 2 weeks from the departure date I booked a 7 day cruise to Alaska. It was so last minute that I really couldn’t get excited. But then it was time to fly to Seattle, WA. The excitement started but in the back of my head the worry of will I be strong enough to do the tours, sites, even walk to my cabin. It has been a year since I was on a exercise routine. Then I look in the mirror and hate what I see. This extremely over weight person with hair growing back with what they say is the chemo curl! Ugh! So I say, fuck it and enjoy the cruise! Enjoy this vacation with the boys because who knows if next year they will even want to travel with us.

As I lay in my cabin and look out the window and all I see is grey clouds. But I feel that these grey clouds are so beautiful and such a wonderful breath of fresh air. So I might worry about a lot of things that many others don’t even think about. I can still take control and be grateful for the beauty that surrounds me. Enjoy the time with my family and dear friends. And most of all take time away from all this cancer fighting treatment!

I am blessed! I got this!