Well that’s what all the women say that have the Diep Flap! This past Tuesday I went to see my surgeon for the second time and I weighed in. I finally made it to there approved weight. I have lost 32.8lbs in total and at my pre cancer weight. It is still not the weight I want to be at but it’s the weight that I can move forward and do the Diep Flap. It took a massive effort to lose with strict dieting and excessive exercise. I walked 3 miles a day, then either do Zumba, weights or orange theory. Yes, OT! Funny story my second week in, I fell throw the row machine. It’s funny looking back as I was so into the work out that I wasn’t even embarrassed! The coach came running over to make sure I was ok and to left me up from the floor. He thought I would walk out but I was determined to finish my workout. “Mind over Matter”

I will be on FMLA for 10 weeks with the hope of maybe coming back at 8. I will have to remind myself that this is my time to heal. The hotels will continue to be there no matter what. I look back and feel that it took so long to her here and now I feel like it is happening so quickly. I have ordered the lift chair, completed the FMLA papers, purchased some needed items for post surgery. So this Saturday while everyone is sleeping I will be arriving at the hospital at 5am. Surgery will begin at 7:30.

The surgery is severe as they will cut my stomach hip to hip. They will remove skin and fat. They will pull down my skin and build new breast with the skin and fat. No it is not a tummy tuck. Many joke and say it’s a two for one. I’ve even joked about it. It will be a 4-6 hour surgery. Once it is done I will be in a room for 3 days. I will go home with a wound vac and 4 drains. Recovery will consist of walking with a walker for 3 weeks and several follow up appointments. The main concern is the wound healing. 

There are so many emotions going on. Between excitement that I reached a goal and fear of surgery and recovery. As my STARBUCKS coffee read “Don’t be afraid, Believe”! I believe all will go well. I haven’t gotten to where I am today without the grace of god, my tenacious spirit and support of my family and friends!

I got this! I am blessed!