I am 15 days post op. I am very impressed with my recovery thus far. The scares are by far the worse part. One scar is from hip to hip and currently I have still have two drains. Then I have two triangle shape scares, one on each breast. They are all healing well. The drains in my breast were removed last week along with the wound vac. I am currently walking 1.25 miles. I’m resting a lot which is good but also frustrating. I have a list of things I want to do but they must wait just a little longer.

As I reflex on this journey that will soon be 2 years. I’ve learn and grown a lot. I’ve learned that family and friends are few. I’ve lost some and gained some. And truly I harbor no ill will to those I’ve lost. I simply choose now to only allow what I feel is sincere and true family and friends in. In recent conversations with Juan. I mentioned that I would love to have the days where all our family and friends are together. But times have changed. People have changed. And so have I. Love, respect and sincerity are so important. More important than having many people around me.

I am learning to meditate and self heal. Rest and regain my energy. With time I will be back to exercising and hopefully doing more runs. I continue to submerge myself in the beauty of nature. Listening to birds and animals around my yard. There is so much peace around us if we only take this time to see it and enjoy it. We shouldn’t have to wait till we are sick or on vacation to see it. We live surrounded by nature and beauty but we are so busy and live in negativity. I believe it is a choice. You choose to live in positivity or not.

Being a Cancer Survivor you learn a lot about yourself and others. Everyday you grow and learn. It could be the simplest of things or the more complex but we learn. I’ve learned that a positive mindset has thrusted me through this journey. No am I not saying by any means that it has been easy. But the days that felt like I wanted to give up, were the days I choose to fake it. Fake it till it became easy to get out of bed. I mustard the strength and courage to take yet one more scan or one more surgery. My journey still continues but it continues with my positive spirit, my faith and the support of my friends and family.

I am blessed! I got this!