It’s been a while but not from a lack or trails and tribulations but from a sense of, well disbelief!

I had my yearly exam with a scheduled CT Scan in mid August. Since we recently moved I went to a new facility. Results came back that i had some abnormal results in my breast. Which I thought was weird because i had a diep flap.

So the recommendation was to have an MRI. After waiting for results and scheduling the MRI, results came in with a lesion in the sternum. So now it’s another recommendation of more testing. This time Pet Scan is recommended.

Pet Scan now came back with more disturbing news but better then I had thought. There is a mammary lymph node showing signs of metastasis. Now a biopsy is required.

I am not sure what is worse, the thought of a reoccurrence or the waiting to get things scheduled. It has been over a week since the Pet Scan and now over a week from speaking with my oncologist for her to request a biopsy. The health system is truly a piece of shit. And that is that I am an educated individual with PPO insurance. I feel for others that don’t have the knowledge base or insurance.

So for now I await the call to schedule the biopsy. Pretend all is ok and that I am strong. Truth be told, there are moments of why continue then there are moments that I just need a plan to fight.

I have tried to keep busy, travel, work, more travel, visit from friends and even a cruise. But reality is, it is all still there!

I know I am not alone! I have God by my side, my wonderful husband, family and friends. I know this too shall pass and I will win but to not know and to try to focus on everything else but this is not easy! And as I always try to remind myself, this could be worse.

I got this and I will win again.